I'M ENGAGED!

We are officially engaged! 

Lol actually I was quite busy a few weeks before the kenduri. I even forgot about it until a week before the date. hahahah masa tulah baru kelam kabut nak cari barang hantaran and stuff.  So yeah, I took only a week to prepare everything; the engagement gifts, my veil, flower crown and hand bouquet. We only have a small budget for this engagement so I decided to do everything DIY. It was really super jimat because it only cost me 50 bucks to prepare everything1!! *super excited* 

So here are my DIY gifts :>

My first DIY hand bouquet :p

I told my mum I wanted this engagement to be simple. So there was no dais, just like an old, traditional way hehehe. 

I had no proper photo for my ootd (T.T) but there you go. DIY flower crown, shawl + veil, and my engagement dress / baju raya lol. 

Oh, if you guys are looking for a high quality chiffon to make a DIY shawl, you can find it at TEWAH. I bought a 1-metre chiffon 55' for only 12 bucks! Good quality lah sebab tak jarang but it is easily crumpled. But I love it sebab senang gila nak bentuk huhu

:>

Andddd that's us, finally got a decent shot.

Alhamdulillah, everything went well. In 362 days, I'll be your forever Azmi. ;)

8.8.2015

A new phase?

cincin merisik :p

Gonna be someone's fiancee in a few weeks and it scares the hell outta me. Orang kata masa bertunang ni laaaa lagi banyak dugaan. Masalahnya belum apa - apa lagi dah mula rasa perasaan bukan - bukan hmm

One thing for sure is that my PMS is getting worse the last few months. ESPECIALLY LAST MONTH. We fought almost everyday about trivial matters and I felt unsure about the whole thing. I was thinking too much. I don't wanna he to regret this later. That he didn't really enjoy his youth because he tied the knot too early. I asked him every time we fought; 

"Are you sure you wanted to marry me
"Are you sure you're up for this big responsibilities?"
"Are you sure that you won't regret this later?"

And his answers every time makes me believe he is, indeed, the one. :')

Well, he just need to convince me once in awhile that he really wanted this. That he wouldn't regret his decision marrying a psycho like me. :p

Ikutkan nak nikah je terus, but we need more time to save up some cash. Ah lets just hope everything will be just fine. We can only plan things, but He is the best planner after all. 

Keep having faith. [3:54] 

Semester 4;

I don't know whether I should be happy or sad when this semester has ended. I just lie down the whole evening after finishing the last paper the other day. Just lying in my bed, doing exactly nothing. One thing for sure, I'm glad it was over. Tough subjects, too many mixed up feelings. Ah, worst semester so far. 

The funny thing is that I thought having Azmi closer to me would make me feel better. Would make me feel less lonely, but having him around just make me feel worse. I've became too attached to him, I guess. Ah, pathetic, overly - attached girlfriend. 

And the subjects I took this semester, they were all pain in the ass! I don't know man. Maybe I studied last minute, I took things for granted. I thought I can cover everything up before the exam but girl, I WAS WRONG! Ah, I don't expect anything this semester. I would get what I deserved.

It's scary though, thinking that I'll be a senior in a few months. 3 semesters left and then I'll be facing the real world.

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And I don't think I'm ready for that.

Tips for PASUM;

Well, I still couldn't believe that it has been two years since I left asasi. One of the greatest moments in life I could say. 

Since the new batch of PASUM just registered themselves last week, I am here to give several sisterly advices. :p

Time management is crucial in PASUM. Yes, you will be packed with classes from 8 am to 5pm. You have at least 6 tutorials and 2 lab reports every week (for asasi fizikal lah). So what I did was; I will finish my chemistry lab report the night after I did the lab. For example, lab chemistry ptg Isnin. Malam tu lepas dinner terus siapkan report because you will be very tired after chem lab. Awak tak akan larat nak siapkan tutorial atau cover balik apa awak belajar hari tu. Jadi baik gunakan tenaga yang tinggal utk salin balik report yang ada. 

Do all your tutorials. Dengan buat tutorial, awak akan lebih faham apa yang awak belajar dalam kelas. Don't do it last minute, don't copy your friends. Ask them or the tutors if you don't understand the questions. Try to finish up all the tutorials on weekend and you will have more free times at night on weekdays. Mostly in the final examination, lecturer akan tanya balik soalan tutorial, especially subject math. So yes, do the tutorials and understand them well.

Study group. You won't have all the answers and lecturers won't be available most of the time. So yes, ask your friends for help if you have something you don't understand. Do study group. When i was in PASUM, I really struggled to understand math and physics but Alhamdulillah, I was surrounded by good friends that helped me throughout the year. I always refer to them and in return, I would help them in chemistry.

Do past year questions. It really helps, trust me. Sebab soalan final selalunya berulang je lol

Get rid of the negative mindsets. Silibus tu senang je kalau awak fokus dan cuba fahamkan apa yang awak belajar dalam kelas. PASUM tak sama mcm sekolah yang akan ada cikgu ingatkan utk buat tutorial dan bagi setiap jalan kira. Kalau tak buat tutorial, hmm hanyutlah dibuai mimpi. 

"Selagi awak tak baca buku teks/rujukan 10 kali, jangan jumpa pensyarah dan cakap awak tak faham tentang sesuatu." -Prof. Sahar 

It's true though. If you don't understand about something, try to read back all the notes and reference book and InsyaAllah, you'll get a better understanding. Kita ni sebenarnya malas nak membaca je, lepas tu salahkan pensyarah ajar laju sangat. You cannot expect the lecturers will spoon feed you when you're in Uni. So try to adapt with your new environment rather than complaining ini susah, itu susah, okay? 

A3 - Sains Fizikal 

Honestly, PASUM was one of the greatest time. The friendship you made, the memories. It was really valuable. I was struggle to fit in at first tapi alah bisa tegal biasa kan. Masuk semester 2, I had lots of free time sebab dah biasa dgn jadual kelas and I already knew how to manage my time.

So don't worry. You will be fine. :)

p.s I graduated with 4.0 in case you're wondering. :P

It makes sense now;

Being a second year student now, I finally realized that everything makes sense now. 

Kalau tanya balik cita - cita masa form 3, aku akan cakap pakar psikologi. Alih - alih form 4, tak dapat sekolah sains. aku daftar je diri pergi sekolah teknik, dengan alasan mahukan suasana baru. 

Okaylah. 
Dekat teknik, aku cuba pupuk minat, kononnya bercita - cita nak jadi jurutera kimia. Aku simpan niat nak sambung belajar di luar negara. Tapi entah kenapa, susah sangat nak pupuk minat pada engineering tu. Akhirnya aku nekad untuk sambung psikologi selepas SPM.

Alhamdulillah, berbekalkan dengan keputusan 10A tu, aku mohon pragram luar negara;

Bsc of Psychology, Uni. of Queensland, Australia.

Tak tahu mana silapnya, aku tak dapat tawaran tu. Entahlah, mungkin terlalu yakin. Mungkin juga Tuhan dah ada perancangan yang lebih baik untuk aku. Jadi aku teruskan perjalanan di Pusat Asasi Sains, Uni. Malaya. Walaupun dah tak ada hati nak dalami ilmu sains, aku teruskan juga atas dorongan mama dgn ayah. 

Rasa stress sangat belajar benda yang kita tak minat.

But Allah knows best.

Suatu hari, entah macam mana terdetik nak tengok maklumat kursus geologi. Tertarik dengan kandungan kursus tu sebab kita akan belajar benda baru.

No more intense lab like chemistry.

No more heavy calculations like physics.

Buat isthikarah dan akhirnya aku yakin. This is the best for me.

And here I am now, a second - year Applied Geology student and a PETRONAS scholar holder.
Everything just making sense now. :)

[1:216]

Day Trip; Klebang, Melaka

Ah, still cannot get over of this place! Despite of my injured leg, I was determined to walk over a few kilometers just to go to this place. I even climbed on of the sand dunes! Lol who's ever thought that a construction site could be such a beautiful place afterall.

Pantai Klebang, Melaka.

I am definitely gonna come here again. Ah the wind, the view, the sunset. I'm so in love with this place. :)

Waze: Pantai Klebang, Melaka. 

p/s if you're looking for the best coconut shake, you can go to Batu Berendam (a few kilometers from here). They served the best coconut shake with the price of RM2.50 only!

Peace;

Why did you keep your burden inside you 

when you have Allah to tell it to? 

Why did you fear everyone might hate you 

when you have Allah who understands you? 

Why did you fill your heart with pain and anguish 

when you have Allah to fill it with eternal bliss? 

Why did you choose to settle in turbulence 

when there's His pure love that speaks of peace? 

Deep

2 years;

I love you, yet I hate you. 

It's like I want to throw you off a cliff,

but then run really fast to the bottom

and catch you.

Can you see how much important you are to me?

Ah, I love you sayang.

:*

Just love it when you're wearing that red tie.

Happy two years baby ! 

:*

Little Things;

Smiling and laughing

Calling each other's names

Cursing to each others 

Telling stories

and making fun of it.

Cuddling.
Having late night conversations
What else?

Ah, you're so close yet so far from me.

I miss you, Azmie Johari.

It's been 1 year and 10 months. :>

Kem Insaniah #2

Pernah masuk satu kedai berjenama dan tidak mendapat layanan
hanya kerana kita berpakaian selekeh?
Atau berdepan dengan seorang cashier yang tiada adab?
Atau seorang pekerja yang mencampur-adukkan isu personal dgn soal kerja?
Atau seorang jurujual yang tidak faham tentang produk yang dijualnya?

Atau ...........

"Everyone should have a professionalism in them"

1. Specialized knowledge
2. Skills
3. Honest & Integrity
4. Accountability
5. Self-Control
6. Image

Kalau anda ada ciri-ciri di atas, maka anda seorang yang professional.

Luls.

Later.