A new phase?

cincin merisik :p

Gonna be someone's fiancee in a few weeks and it scares the hell outta me. Orang kata masa bertunang ni laaaa lagi banyak dugaan. Masalahnya belum apa - apa lagi dah mula rasa perasaan bukan - bukan hmm

One thing for sure is that my PMS is getting worse the last few months. ESPECIALLY LAST MONTH. We fought almost everyday about trivial matters and I felt unsure about the whole thing. I was thinking too much. I don't wanna he to regret this later. That he didn't really enjoy his youth because he tied the knot too early. I asked him every time we fought; 

"Are you sure you wanted to marry me
"Are you sure you're up for this big responsibilities?"
"Are you sure that you won't regret this later?"

And his answers every time makes me believe he is, indeed, the one. :')

Well, he just need to convince me once in awhile that he really wanted this. That he wouldn't regret his decision marrying a psycho like me. :p

Ikutkan nak nikah je terus, but we need more time to save up some cash. Ah lets just hope everything will be just fine. We can only plan things, but He is the best planner after all. 

Keep having faith. [3:54] 

Semester 4;

I don't know whether I should be happy or sad when this semester has ended. I just lie down the whole evening after finishing the last paper the other day. Just lying in my bed, doing exactly nothing. One thing for sure, I'm glad it was over. Tough subjects, too many mixed up feelings. Ah, worst semester so far. 

The funny thing is that I thought having Azmi closer to me would make me feel better. Would make me feel less lonely, but having him around just make me feel worse. I've became too attached to him, I guess. Ah, pathetic, overly - attached girlfriend. 

And the subjects I took this semester, they were all pain in the ass! I don't know man. Maybe I studied last minute, I took things for granted. I thought I can cover everything up before the exam but girl, I WAS WRONG! Ah, I don't expect anything this semester. I would get what I deserved.

It's scary though, thinking that I'll be a senior in a few months. 3 semesters left and then I'll be facing the real world.

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And I don't think I'm ready for that.