2010, thanks for the memories.

Okay, hari nie hari terakhir untuk tahun 2010. Gahhh, kejapnya masa berlalu. See, I'm gonna be a form 5 student. Wahh, tak mahu. Aku tak nak jadi form 5 lagi. Aku tak nak habis sekolah. Aku tak nak amek spm. Aku nak main main lagi. I'm not ready yet. Kan best kalau jadi macam Peterpan dengan Tinkerbell. Mereka tak membesar pun kan. HAHA, Syaff dah mula merapu. :D

Well 2010, you're really a bitch. But you've taught me a lots. You've made me stronger. You gave me lessons  to learn so that I'll never repeat my mistakes. Thanks to those who had left. Tariq, you're a jerk, yes, but if you stay maybe I'm still stuck with your unreal love and my fairytale which will never happen. So thanks for showing me that not everything is as sweet as we imagine it will be. Yeah, I'll never let myself fall too hard and too fast like I fell for him, again. It's okay, aku tak simpan apa apa perasaan pun kat kau. I'm not mad at you anymore. :)

And for Suhaila, I thought you'll understand but you never did. So thanks, I finally realize that nothing is forever. And forever never exist. Everything will end, eventually. Part of me is still hoping that we will still be friends but another part of me can't forget what you had done. Your ego, is too high and I can't accept that. So I'm sorry for hurting your feeling. It's for your own sake. I hope you'll be happy. 

There's too many things that I don't know how to put it into words. Love, friendships, life, school, drama that will never ends. Thanks. Thank you for the memories. :)

Dan untuk kau, thanks sebab tahan dgn perangai aku. :)

:)

Highschool will never ends. :)

A goodbye

Goodbye 2010. I hope 2011 will be better. Thanks for the memories though.

Okay, today is already 22nd of December, which means it's only two weeks left before school is opening. Shit, I'm freaking out! I didn't cover my form 4 subject at all. 

Okay, Syafira, next year adalah tahun SPM ye? Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia. Damn, I don't think I'm ready. No, gahh. I'm form 5 already? Shit, it's my last year of high school. Seriously, TAK BERSEDIA! Hahah, kenapa cepat sangat dah form 5? Aku terasa macam kejap sangat lahh. 

Syaf, kau nak jadi apa dah besa nanti? Haa, kau nak amek ape lepas SPM? Gahhh, I don't fuckin' know. Hahah, aku blur, seriously, aku tade cita cita. Aku tak tahu nak jadi apa nanti. Hahah, kahwin terus boleh? 

2010 is gonna end soon. New year is coming. It's a big year, Syaf. You gotta to work hard. You gotta think and decide your way after that. You have to be matured, tak boleh main main lagi tahu. You gotta be independent too. Macam mana nak study oversea kalau makan pun mama amek kan lagi ye tak? :)

2010, you've taught me a lots this year. Thanks for the memories, thanks for the lessons. You make me stronger now. Thank you. :D

Dear best friend,

I want a boy best friend who will call me beautiful, and like my photos on facebook, commenting them saying things such as the fact he's proud to have me as a bestfriend. One that I can call up, crying about other boys, and him saying he'll beat the shit out of them for me. A boy bestfriend who will drive me around like he's my big brother, and kiss me on my cheek/forehead when he knows I'm upset. One who becomes friends with my boyfriend and one who calls me up to see what I'm doing. I want a boy best friend who will tell me when I'm wrong, and force me into fixing things and apologizing because he knows that it will make things better for me. I just want a best friend, who will love me and protect me from all the other boys.

Hahah, thanks wehh, sebab jadi kawan aku. :)

Results.

Okay, sekarang nie tga freak out gila. Result final dah keluar dan akan dihantar ke rumah. Grr, serious aku tga risau. WHAT IF result aku menurun. WHAT IF physic aku failed ? Ahh, physic, I freaking hate you. 

Eh, boleh tak nak berhenti sekolah dah kahwin je terus dgn anak raja ? -.-

Starting.

Hello, yeah, this is officially my blog. Sebelum sebelum nie punya macam cb, so I'm making the new one. :)