Again;

One is good
Two is better
Three wouldn't work.

And I always be the third person.
Cliche

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONG !

Semua plan tak jadi hanya disebabkan kesalahan membaca peta.

Akibat amarah kerana terasa penat lelah memikirkan surprise untuk mamat nie tak berbaloi, maka aku dgn gaya 'like a boss' terus memecahkan sebiji telur di atas kepalanya lalu digaulkan sekali dgn adunan tepung 1Malaysia. 

Hihi, harap-harap tiada dendam dan tiada balasan lah tahun depan. Aminnn :3

See, aku menangis tahu sebab plan semua tak jadi. 

Haih, I'm gonna miss you bie.

Take care bila dekat Johor nanti.

Remember, I will always wait for you.

Iloveyou :')

Gay baby;

"gay aku syg kau. kau lh the only kwn aku yg fhm aku. everytime aku ada mslh, kau lh kwn aku yg boleh settle kn prob aku. yg lain boleh but mereka more tu bad decision. kau more to think fis be4 bt kputusan. even gelak kau kelaka n horror gila tp best. mcm td be4 end call kau ttbe ckp "hukkhukk", pn dh bt aku gelak lps tu. kau best lh." - Amlna Mzln

Awwww, gay. Speechless terus aku. :')

ILOVEYOU GAYYYYYYY ! 

Yes baby, It's still going strong;

Haa, ini kawan baik saya. Saya kenal dia since sekolah rendah lagi tau tau.

Yes Aqila Aliya. It's been almost 10 years. Lama gilewww dowhhh. Hahah I am glad to I know that I still have you. I'm sorry for everything. Yes, at first aku macam terasa hati jugak lah kau macam dah nak berubah semua. Changing for good. I'm afraid you'll forget me or you don't wanna be friends with me anymore. Tapi sekarang saya yakin dgn friendship kita dan saya gembira awak dah macam nie. Infact, I'm proud of you baby <3 Bukan semua orang boleh berubah macam awak buat. 

and no matter what, I'll always gonna support you in everything you do. I'm gonna be there for you k ? Sayang awakx ketat ketat 

:)

Bridesmaid;

When I met you just now, I suddenly miss you.
I miss having a long chat with you.
I miss every morning, we went to school together.
Hanging up with you
Gossiping with you
Sharing stories with you
Hearing stories about your crushes
Laughing like HELL together 
Wtw with you and we kept cursing towards each other
I miss everything, everything we used to do.


I know that now you've changed, for good.
And I'm glad that you have a real friends now.
But I feel that we have a huge gap,
and I know you feel the same thing.


It just, I miss the old you
The old us.

Bitches;

Well, I guess everyone has their own life kan?

I'm backing off.

Have fun girls. 

:)

MIA;

Kalau tiba tiba rasa aku hilang untuk beberapa minggu nie, jangan tanya kenapa. Aku just dah fed up nak menghadap perangai 'kawan' or 'BFF' yang macam ... I don't know, err yang mcm bangsat? LOL.


I've told you, BFF is just a meaningless figure of speech.
Nahh, I'm okay.
:)

Sitigabelas;

Korang mmg awesome.

Sayang korang lah. 

Thanks, 7 bulan aku kat hostel mmg cool.

Adlina si KD yang kuat meraba

Amira si kaki panjang

Tia yang suka menyanyi

Paan si gemokkk

Nana si mulut puaka

Mimie yang gila SRK

Aida si gelabah

Eyka si pelat

Nopa yang gilaa

Wana si pemakan tulang

Kak Umie si kuat bebel

Thankyousomuch :')

7 months of bittersweet moments 

Untuk kau;

Well yeahh. Aku speechless. Hahah aku ingat kau tak kisah dah pasal aku but you still did.

Thanks wehh, aku terharu.

Yeahh, sememangnya aku sedih kita end up macam nie. Tiap kali kite lepak, kau borak dgn budak lain tapi kau ignore aku, serious rasa nak bom kau. Aku taktau kenapa kau mcm tuh, aku tahu dulu aku ada buat salah. Aku mintak maaf weh, aku bukan lupakan kau ke ape masa kita mula mula masuk hostel tuh. Aku jadi tak happy bila kita macam nie. Yes, aku hmpir give up nak face kau tiap hari smpai aku rasa nak kua asrama. Tapi bila fikir balik, aku sayang nak keluar dari thirteen tuh.Kali nie aku keluar sebab aku nak lebih fokus utk SPM. Bukan sebab sesiapa dah. Aku try nak move on, tgk kau dah ada life sendiri, happy dgn kawan kawan kau, aku jadi sedih. Aku rindu kita yg dulu, rindu zaman jadi outsiders dulu. Aku bukan tanak spill, share story dgn kau tapi aku takut kau rimas dgn aku.Aku takut kau bosan dgn cerita aku. Aku tgk kau pun ada benda lain nak fikir jadi aku tanak kacau kau. Aku rindu nak lepak dgn kau. Rindu nak gelak gelak sesama dulu. Rindu nak rehat sesama. Entahlah. Aku rindu kau kot, rindu dgn outsiders. Rasa macam semua orang dah ada life sendiri kan? Haih, aku harap kita bole macam dulu lagi. Sorry weh, sorry for everything. Aku mintak maaf sgt sgt kat kau. Dan thanks, sebab kau still care. Good luck, aku tahu kau pun boleh score nanti. Harap kita sama sama naik pentas tahun depan. :)

Kita tetap kawan sampai mati kan?

Gay sayang;

Sorry, aku tak bagitahu kau aku balik, actually aku tacing dgn kau. Aku tgh marah kau nie sebab aku rasa kau dah byk berubah. Aku terasa macam dah nak hilang kau. Just because of the boys, kau jadi macam nie. Kenapa gay? Tak cukup ke support dari kawan kawan kau? Kau stress, byk benda kau bole buat. Smoking is not one of the solutions. You know how much I hate smokers kan? Aku sayang kau, aku tanak kau makin mcm nie, aku terasa macam aku nie takde guna kawan dgn kau, sebab aku tak boleh nak hilangkan sedih kau. Aku cuba faham keadaan kau. Yes, gay. Aku faham keadaan kau. I've been through it too. Bukan kau sorang byk kontroversi tahun nie. I have it too, in fact I think my life is much more miserable than you. Tapi aku decided utk move on, get stronger and just live my life. Sebab aku tahu aku ada kau, aku ada Miera, aku ada Aqila, aku ada orang yang sayang aku. Aku tahu aku ada Dia, yang maha besar kat atas tuh. Dan dan kau tahukan, I'm not going anywhere. Kau bole je dtg kat aku, anytime.


C'mon Amaa, kau bukan macam nie kan dulu, kau dulu happy je kan? Mana Amaa yang happy-go-lucky aku yang dulu? Mana gay aku yang gila gila tuh? Tolong jgn cakap aku hilang dia, sebab aku tak snggup nak face benda tuh. Sekarang nie, kita tinggal tiga bulan je amaa. Boleh tak kita ketepikan dulu semua masalah kita dan kita focus utk satu benda dulu? Tak mati pun kan kau takde boyfriend? Lagi senang kau nak belajar nati. Kau kan supermel yang hot, ramai lagi superman yang kat luar sana tunggu kau. Kau ada kawan kawan kau kan, mereka semua sayang kau. Aku, Miera, semua syg kau. Wong pun kata dia sayang kau. Aku tanak kau macam nie. Aku nak kita sama sama happy masa bulan tiga tahun depan. 


Supermel aku kuat kan? 
Please whoever yang dah rasuk gay aku, pulangkan dia balik.

P/s maaf aku tulis panjang lebar macam nie. ILY gay, all the best utk trial.

P/s/s  kau buat macam mana pun, kau tetap gay aku. takan ku ceraikan dikau. hahah :)

Iloveyousomuch gay :')

I'm moving on;

Haih, aku tahu aku dah buat silap. I'm screwed up. Maaf, aku mintak maaf pasal tuh. Tapi kau tak perlu nak hukum aku sampai macam nie weh. Kau buat aku rasa pathetic gila, sampai aku dah tak rasa happy nak tinggal kat asrama tuh.

I'm giving up. Aku dah cuba nak baik balik dgn kau but it wasn't good enough kan? Mungkin lebih baik aku duduk sorang sorang dekat rumah dari aku duduk ramai ramai kat asrama tapi masih rasa kosong.

I'm sick of pretending anymore. You chose this, I'm moving on.

I know things gonna be okay, soon;

It's been almost a year kan?
I didn't expect that you gonna come and talk to me like that
but I'm glad you did
I really miss us.
and I'm know things gonna be okay soon.
It's just a matter of time. :)

Timeless moments;

How I wish all of these were just a dream. 

I miss those stupid conversations with you, the one which always make me laugh. 

I miss those bittersweet moments with you, the moments that we laugh and cry together.

I hate how everything is changed now.

It's funny that we're not starting conversation anymore.

I hate the fact that I'm already losing you.

You and you and you too.

We tend to care for something that is already gone.

Promises are made to be broken.

We're all growing up.

Maybe this is just a part of the journey.

Maybe there's a reason for everything that has happened. 

PMS III

Okay. It hurts and idk why. Maybe this friendship thingy really affected me. 


It's okay. 
I'm trying my best not to take it personally.
I'll be okay soon.

Verily after each difficulties, there's a relief.

Whatever happens, happens;

People change. They end up having nothing to say to each other even though they were bestfriends a year before.


Fine. I'm facing the fact that we're not the same anymore.
I'm tired of pretending and faking smile.
I'm tired of crying every night.
It hurts so much.
So I'm done.


Sedih tgk orang depan mata berubah macam tuh.

cliché

The old time;

*sigh*
I wish I can turn back the time.
I really miss these moments.

Dear kawan;

I'm so sorry. I know I hurt a lot of people. Thanks Aqila. You really open my eyes. Yahh, it is my fault. I know it now. Sorry, I don't what else I could say. I wish I can turn back time. I wish I didn't hurt your feeling. I wish I didn't turn out like this. I'm a jerk, so i'm sorry. Tell me what am I supposed to do now? And I do anything to have you as my best friend back. But I guess it's too late, am i? Yes, I cried. This friendship-thingy, it bother me a lot lately. I thought I'm the victim but actually, this thing started from myself. 

I don't what else I can say. It's me who have changed. Amaliena, Miera, Suhaila, Quraishah, Alia, Wana and you, Aqila. I'm sorry, I am so sorry.

I just miss you;

Yahh, I know things are different lately. Things change and we've been busy. But after I read what you've said in you blog, it's a bit harsh you know. I cried actually. After all, I can't put a blame on you. It is my fault too. I know I didn't make an effort to be around you. I did try but is was not good enough. For god sake, I want to tell you everything but I just didn't found a right time. And I afraid I annoy you with my silly love story. Then again, it was my fault. I over think. Things become socially awkward. I hate it when you're making that look. I hate whenever I smile at you and you didn't smile back. I hate it whenever I be around you and you seems like I annoyed, so much. 


I try to be like the old time but you always have things to do. I came look after you during recess but then, still, you have works to do. I feel like now you're ignoring me. We didn't talk much lately, do we? 


We used to share about everything, right?

I'm sorry. I know it's my fault. Can we go back like how we use to be? 'Cause right now, I really need you, Aqila. 

What's bff?

Idk why but I feel like everyone has changed now.
I've already lost two best friends.
From a cheerful bitch to heartless.
From a friend that I share every secrets and now we're barely talk.
Am I gonna lose another one? 
From a cool girl to a sarcastic bitch who doesn't know how to feel anymore.
What's next? 
Am i gonna lose you and you and you too?
Are you gonna back stab me like he did to her?
Are you gonna be heartless too?
And are you gonna hate me like you hate her?


Yeahh, I can't judge. I'm not in their shoes. I don't know how they feel. Yahh, you're right.
Idk, I just afraid.
Please don't change.

When we hurts too badly,

something inside us just shut down.

What a lovely day;

Dengan 50% homework aku dah siap, project current yang dah bersentuh, dengan cuaca angin sepoi sepoi bahasa, dapat hang dgn Wana Qila dan Amaa, dapat jumpa Kak Wanie yang dah berabad menyepi, dapat jumpa Zaki, dengan ada beruk peneman aku. Hidup memang indah! :D

With you by my side,

I'll be okay then.

:)

Another moments to remember.