Pathetic;

When you burst out crying alone in your room, and you realize that no one truly knows how unhappy you are because you don't know how to explain what's going on and no one's able to listen either.


I'm sorry I'm so difficult. 
I really am sorry.

Still going strong, baby;

8months, syg. We have been together for 8months. :)
Remember the time when we used to call each other's name, or the time we used to have stupid fights everyday. You made my days back then. Stay with me when everyone was leaving and never gave up on me. Thanks bie. Thanks for the patience and the faith you have in me. We are still going strong, in 7 years, insyaAllah. :)

Iloveyou with all my heart <3

p/s and thanks for the ferrero roche ! :D

Note for you;

Because we're girls

We get mad over the smallest reasons. We overanalyze everything. We feel a sense of jealousy when we see you talking to someone who has more to offer. We get sad at the thought of ever losing you. We start pointless arguments and fights, just to see if you care enough to stick around. We often say things we later regret. We want to know you care as much as we do. It’s because we’re girls, and we need to be reassured from time to time.

The reasons we were ending up not okay these past few days are because I'm a girl and I think a lot.

Fighting with the devils;

Ya Allah,

Help me change.

Help me change.

Help me change.

Because I do not want to be like this anymore, my Lord. 

And I cannot change without your help.

Please help my helpless soul. 

Hold me upright. 

Get me through this. 

Please.

SOS;

Please, I really need a help right now. I'm already addicted to this shit.

Haih, you're better than this Syaff.

Blablabla;

I'm tired of being alone. When I talk about being alone, I don't mean my relationship status necessarily. I mean, in my family, in my friendships. It's been way too long since I've felt like I have people to rely on. People say they feel lonely but they're not alone. Well I feel lonely and I am alone. I just wish I had someone, one person that I could rely on.

Penatlahh. Baru nak rasa okay dah terlanggar sket, habis jatuh berderai balik.

Things that should be reminded;

1. Be strong.
2. Never backout.
3. Try and try.
4. Be yourself.
5. Never let anyone bring you down.
6. Be positive.
7. Get things done on time.
8. Have fun.
9. Know your limitations.
10. Hang-out with your trusted friends.
11. Pray.
12. Quality time with your family.
13. Don’t be shy.
14. Grab the opportunity.
15. Stop wasting your time.

Random fact;

I love when you kiss my forehead instead of my lips.

Boyfriend/bestfriend;

"Sometimes, when your girlfriend is feeling down, it is best to know that she can come to you as her best friend for help. When she is feeling sad, she wants to know that you are reliable. She wants to know that you still care. If she doesn’t talk, keep talking to her. Don’t let her forget about it but if she wants to drop it, just be there to support her. She needs to know that you put ‘friend’ first before the 'boyfriend'. When she needs you at her lowest, will you be there for her or will you let her go? As the boyfriend, not only are you to be her lover, you are to be her best friend.  She needs someone she can trust to talk to."

I'll afraid you'll change. I don't wanna you to change. I love our relationship so far. So please, don't change. :'(

A fresh start;

Happy 2012 :)